The plan was to have my second blog post be a bit earlier than this.
I won’t beat around the bush. I had so many plans and goals laid out for this year, and I dreamed of a year that may not have been perfect, but at least fulfilling.
And then, in late January, my fourth semester of college started, and everything went out the window. In fact, some days, the only thing I could manage to do was survive. I convinced myself that once I settled into the semester, things would be better, but that never came. My grades were fine, but I was just tired all of the time.
Of course, my exhaustion and unhappiness are likely just victims of the terrible beast that is winter, despite my best efforts to get out into the fresh air and sunshine each day. But, even with the warmer days that my area has gotten in late February and early March, something just felt off.
Does this mean I’m heading to medical professionals? No, I don’t really have time for that right now. And, anyway, while I was sitting in one of my classes, a realization struck me.
I need to change my major.
It’s not that I’m about to fail out of my major, but STEM majors are difficult. And, in my case, incredibly theoretical. The latter is what is really driving my desire for change. I’ve entered the portion of meteorology where we deal with lots of math, physics, and other theoreticals. I’m not saying theoreticals aren’t important, but for me, all they do is bore and stress me out.
So, while the decision is slightly terrifying, I’ve started the process to change my major. It’s still a climate-focused major, but it’ll be more focused on applications and writing, rather than math. I’ve always been a do-er, and with this, I think I’ll find myself in a better place.
Which brings us here, to mid-March. I still have half of the semester left, but for the first time in a while, my creative energy is coming back. I’m excited about my writing again, even if I haven’t decided which project I want to work on just yet. And, best yet, I’m able to consume media again, whether it be books, movies, or video games.
Hopefully, I’ll have a post out on my media consumption soon.
Now, I’ve still got a lot to do, but this is a step that I needed to take for myself. It wasn’t easy, especially with that constant pressure of needing to be in a “difficult” major because I’m “the smart kid,” but I’ve made my decision.
It’s time to get back to what I enjoy.
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